Well people tend to fall in love all the time!But was there something weird about my love?God knows.All i knew was that if what i was thinking was true then maybe i was psychotic!
My name is David Penn and i have always had an ambition to become a writer.But you see i am thirty five and am still unemployed in the conventional sense.I am not suited for jobs which follow a definite time pattern and neitheram i interested in my fathers business.The society has branded me 'unemployed',my friends have branded me a loser and my father has branded me 'good for nothing'!Hey what about the thing of 'follow your dreams'!What can i do if no one is willing to read what i write.And yes because of that i am yet to be married!
Welcome to my life readers and those who just read for the sake of it!Well now that you know my background let me tell you why the heading of the story and why i am i psychotic!
This happened two years ago and i still have to complete it!What you ask?The book i am writing of course!Well i got the idea of writing a romantic novel which people say usually women are good at writing.Agreed,but still i thought lets go ahead.I struggled for two days over the title and named it 'Jane-an amazing experience'.Don't ask why i just thought about it!Maybe i am not a good writer!Oh well!coming back to the story i first started character sketches on my to be characters in the plot.Again i struggled so i decided i would start with 'Jane',the lead character.
I started,"Jane would be a woman of 21 who will be your average 'girl next door'.She would be a slim brunette who pretty in her own way.She would be mature for her age,free minded,independent and headstrong.She would be fun to hang out with and a person who you can confide in."Now with this character in mind i was to base my entire plot on and there would be two men competing for her.One would be the famous and rich millionaire tycoon,Robert Baron and the other would be the struggling writer,John Mitchel.I decided i would stop for now and take a short nap.It so happened that in my dreams i was playing John Mitchel facing the tycoon snob for Jane.Some people say it is good for writers to associate with their characters.So maybe i was going to finally crack it!
As days became weeks and weeks became months. But my novel was not progressing at the pace i had thougt it would.I had thought that i would finish it within 1 year and maybe get it published within 3 months.Damn!Was i lazy or was i just expecting too much?Whatever it was i was soon to find out.The thing that held me back was Jane herself!Yes as i wrote more about her i was also thinking a lot about her!I had developed a very biased sympathy towards thae character John and mild jealousy towards 'Robert'!They say the famous authors Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and Agatha Christie wanted to get rid of their famous characters 'Sherlock Holmes' and 'Hercule Poirot' because their success was causing people to associate with them so much that it caused a pain to their respective authors!And probably this was happening to me in my very first novel!I had started writing about 'Jane' in the present tense like,"Jane is ging here" and questioning 'her' as in "Why does Jane prefer Robert?" Man! was i associating with characters!I was sucking myself into my own novel!Maybe i was feeling sorry for John or feeling bitter towards Robert.Did you notice now i am talking as if they are regular people!Well i could change the plot to suit John but i relised this only two months back!What an idiot i am!
But do you know the true reason for this!The reason was i forgot i was the author,i forgot that Jane and the others were not real and i mostly i confused the plot with reality where i did not have control!Some of you may say dear readers that this is pessimism and that Man is the Master of his FATE,But this for me was never real.I depend on my family for my daily needs,the society does not even acknowledge the existence of us,the strugglers,the 'dreamers'and people are not willing to give us a chance.But now towards the end of my second year of writing my novel,i will complete it and i know i am revealing the end but John will win Jane and if there is no happy ending for me so be it,but THERE WILL BE A HAPPILY EVER AFTER FOR JANE,THE CHARACTER I WROTE AND LOVED!!*
*note-but now that you know the ending still buy my book when it comes out,ok please!
My name is David Penn and i have always had an ambition to become a writer.But you see i am thirty five and am still unemployed in the conventional sense.I am not suited for jobs which follow a definite time pattern and neitheram i interested in my fathers business.The society has branded me 'unemployed',my friends have branded me a loser and my father has branded me 'good for nothing'!Hey what about the thing of 'follow your dreams'!What can i do if no one is willing to read what i write.And yes because of that i am yet to be married!
Welcome to my life readers and those who just read for the sake of it!Well now that you know my background let me tell you why the heading of the story and why i am i psychotic!
This happened two years ago and i still have to complete it!What you ask?The book i am writing of course!Well i got the idea of writing a romantic novel which people say usually women are good at writing.Agreed,but still i thought lets go ahead.I struggled for two days over the title and named it 'Jane-an amazing experience'.Don't ask why i just thought about it!Maybe i am not a good writer!Oh well!coming back to the story i first started character sketches on my to be characters in the plot.Again i struggled so i decided i would start with 'Jane',the lead character.
I started,"Jane would be a woman of 21 who will be your average 'girl next door'.She would be a slim brunette who pretty in her own way.She would be mature for her age,free minded,independent and headstrong.She would be fun to hang out with and a person who you can confide in."Now with this character in mind i was to base my entire plot on and there would be two men competing for her.One would be the famous and rich millionaire tycoon,Robert Baron and the other would be the struggling writer,John Mitchel.I decided i would stop for now and take a short nap.It so happened that in my dreams i was playing John Mitchel facing the tycoon snob for Jane.Some people say it is good for writers to associate with their characters.So maybe i was going to finally crack it!
As days became weeks and weeks became months. But my novel was not progressing at the pace i had thougt it would.I had thought that i would finish it within 1 year and maybe get it published within 3 months.Damn!Was i lazy or was i just expecting too much?Whatever it was i was soon to find out.The thing that held me back was Jane herself!Yes as i wrote more about her i was also thinking a lot about her!I had developed a very biased sympathy towards thae character John and mild jealousy towards 'Robert'!They say the famous authors Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and Agatha Christie wanted to get rid of their famous characters 'Sherlock Holmes' and 'Hercule Poirot' because their success was causing people to associate with them so much that it caused a pain to their respective authors!And probably this was happening to me in my very first novel!I had started writing about 'Jane' in the present tense like,"Jane is ging here" and questioning 'her' as in "Why does Jane prefer Robert?" Man! was i associating with characters!I was sucking myself into my own novel!Maybe i was feeling sorry for John or feeling bitter towards Robert.Did you notice now i am talking as if they are regular people!Well i could change the plot to suit John but i relised this only two months back!What an idiot i am!
But do you know the true reason for this!The reason was i forgot i was the author,i forgot that Jane and the others were not real and i mostly i confused the plot with reality where i did not have control!Some of you may say dear readers that this is pessimism and that Man is the Master of his FATE,But this for me was never real.I depend on my family for my daily needs,the society does not even acknowledge the existence of us,the strugglers,the 'dreamers'and people are not willing to give us a chance.But now towards the end of my second year of writing my novel,i will complete it and i know i am revealing the end but John will win Jane and if there is no happy ending for me so be it,but THERE WILL BE A HAPPILY EVER AFTER FOR JANE,THE CHARACTER I WROTE AND LOVED!!*
*note-but now that you know the ending still buy my book when it comes out,ok please!
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